Sounds like it was positive for you. That's good. Glad it helped. Stay in touch as you wish.

Yeah it was interesting and definitely felt a lot better after attending the Bible class I did meet few old guy's who talked about Bible stuff and the father was a cool guy he talked about his experience and stories it definitely helped me to reflect what's going in my life and shit I never had high hopes about the church But after it all happened I felt really impressed cause it's different from what people say about churches So yeah wrapping up uhh it was good I might go for easter.

So, um, how was church today? Helpful? Not? Make you feel more, or less, isolated?

I'm actually trying to let go of the beast inside and I've decided to go church from tmw I think it tells everything I'm definitely trying to be more open after years of being isolated

My pain doesn't change your pain. But we do learn from each other's experiences. Sometimes we feel we're not the only one going through this, and sometimes we can find ways to cope with our experiences and feelings. That's why it can be helpful to talk.

You're so right that pain changes us. It renders us incapable of things we thought would be natural and normal for us. It also changes the way we have relationships, and it changes the way respond to our environment and circumstances. We view small pains as annoyances, but large and deep pain and suffering challenges all we believe and think, all our relationships, and it forces us to dig deeply for meaning, purpose, and trying to make sense out of it. Day to day we live with this animal inside of us that is not only destroying us but also ruins our relationships with others. We either avoid them or we "bleed" all over them, talking about little but our views and our pain.

Every Word you just said is so f***ing true and I'm really sorry you had to go through as well it's so horrible man. I would like to believe everything you said but it won't change my pain and I'm glad you are free from lie I hope I can also be free from lie one day till then I must go through it.

The pain has really changed me I can't even function properly and so much horror inside.

When you feel alone, you feel so vulnerable and lost. It's like you don't matter. It's difficult to get past that because even when people pay attention to us or even reach out to us, we feel unworthy and often disregard their compassion and friendship.

You think that suicide will end those feelings, but it's been my experience that these feelings eventually pass. It's a pit you're in, not a permanent place. I was at one time in a severe depression for about 3 years, and suicidal for a brief part of the worst part of that valley. I couldn't escape the perception that I was worthless, a complete waste of human flesh, and there was no reason to keep living. One day I came to the realization that was a lie straight from the pit of Hell. God says differently than my self-assessment; He says we are valuable in His sight, and He loves us. I realized I was tormenting myself with the worst possible lie and convincing myself that I was a completely futile human being. It still took me awhile after that realization to stop thinking that way, and it still invades my mind on occasion, but it's a vicious lie.

I feel very Lonley actually, I isolate myself from everyone irl, I don't find anyone who can help me or maybe no one's interested in me and feeling suicidal is true it gives no hope to move forward in life and hence you won't have faith in anyone or doesn't feel like you're worth to someone. I still have hope thoo but it's definitely not going to be easy..

I'm really stuck in a dilemma with this girl I would really like to talk someone about it It's making me feel crippled inside

Glad you're "fine," but not glad to hear maybe you're not. Feeling suicidal is such a desperate and hopeless way to feel. Do you want to talk about "nothing left" in faith?

Yeah, I guess I'm fine maybe not Nothing have changed for me I feel completely suicidal for like 1 week.

I appreciate you reaching out to me Cause most of them wouldn't and don't care sad but true Also I don't know how to have faith when I have nothing left.