I need some help figuring this dream out that I had last night. First some back story.
I'm 32 years old and grew up in a VERY christian household. My parents used to hold meetings for people getting out of cult groups and we think because of this, I used to see "ghosts" as a kid. I quote ghosts because it wasn't a ghost but something that looked like my mother but wasn't my mother (as she is still alive). I've seen her a hand full of times, always with red eyes, never talks just is there, does something and then dispersal. My family has dubbed it "not mom".
I believe I was then followed through out my adult life. Getting scratched, being pushed down stairs, doors opening and closing on their own. Doesn't matter where I go, there's ALWAYS something. I've said spiritual warfare prayers and while things calm down for a while, they eventually come back. I believe this is because I am very strong in my faith and try and do God's work when I can. It reminds me of the verse, " For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. "- Ephesians 6:12
This brings me to now. I know fallen angels (demons) can do a lot of harm, just not physically but mentally. Give you nightmares, inject thoughts or feelings into you and try and steer you down a bad path, but this dream not only freaks me out it makes me question 'why'?
So I want to start out by saying that while I think a LOT of lore about false gods are kind of neat, I only take them as stories. I know a lot about Odinism because my husband was deep into it before he became a christian. I also know a lot about Greek mythology due to liking movies like Hercules. What I don't know ANYTHING about is Egyptian. Literally the only info I know stems from watching the movie "The Mummy" and while it's hollywood, I take it with a grain of salt. Although I really don't have any desire to go reading up on Egyptian mythology anyway.
This brings me to my dream. I play a lot of video games and so sometimes they can get into your head but here's the thing, I haven't watched or read anything egyptian in YEARS. Never thought about it, never brought it up but my dream was part video game part egyptian lore.
In my dream I was a Priest (video game version), where I go around and heal people and protect them from attacks. Although I had a mode that I called 'god mode' where I could change physically and my powers would change as well. I KNEW I was the egyptian goddess Isis. I thought this was hysterical because it made me picture me being a bunch of men in turbans running down the street as their very evil group are known as "Isis", so why the name? As I try and do in my subconscious I think, I don't like that name... it makes no sense, I'm going to change it. But no matter what I did, everyone called me Isis which was insanely frustrating as they ignored my name corrections.
Soooo... I ended up joining a "Guild" (group of people for 1 common goal) and revealed to them my god mode. That although I was a healer, my god mode made me DPS (damage dealer) so that I could help the guild fight evil and being able to swap between the two roles would greatly help out the guild. Then this happens. I'm in god mode to show them what I can do, and I turn and look at one of them. I laugh internally because it's my husband standing there but it's like he doesn't know me. I could see this aura around him.. black and death like. I said to him, "You have god mode too! You just don't know it." I start giving him this whole speech about how I can bring it out of him if he wants too and show him that its something he needs to embrace because its who he is. He took my hand and turned into Osiris. The minute he turned into Osiris though, I felt this OVER WHELMING desire from my god mode for him. It was like this INSANE intense pull and attraction. Like we were meant to be together and we now found each other and I didn't really understand what this all meant and then I woke up...
Here's the weird part.. I googled Isis and found out she's a real Egyptian goddess. Lore says she was married to Osiris and they produced a son Horus. I know all this stuff isn't real but what freaks me out about it is I'm dreaming of stuff that lore says is correct, that I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW.
I chalk it up to another attack just putting stuff in my head but WHY?! What is the point of it all? I'm not so stupid to think I had a past life of being a god that doesn't exist! I don't understand the point or purpose. Anyone have any ideas?!