So I would like to start by saying I've seen an angel before and some other miracles in my life. However, I no longer believe for several reasons.
1. Miracles can't prove this religion over any other. When you hear about other religions they seem fantastic and stupid, i.e., Scientology having spaceships, Hinduism having a god for every day of the week. However, Christianity seems equally silly to me by having us believe in virgin births and walking on water, etc.
2. Modern science seems to disagree with Genesis. There doesn't seem to be any way for geologic events to have happened in the time allotted by the Old Testament. If Genesis isn't literally true, then how can you trust the bible to be true?
3. The Bible seems to have philosophical contradictions. I'm not counting minuscule contradictions like spelling and translation errors. However, the Bible says all sin is equal in God's eyes, but Christians act like homosexuality is so much worse than other sins. (not the best example) The New Testament is very anti-violence, but God is very violent in the Old Testament. Isn't God unchanging in nature? Many many more philosophical contradictions. Likely due to its numerous authors separated by many years.
On the flip side, I don't want to be an atheist.
1. I've seen what at the time I thought was an angel and have had an out of body experience, have had prophetic dreams and have seen sunflower seeds multiply. I can't explain this and there is no proof or reason for you to even believe I've seen these things.
It's super-depressing to think that this is it, after believing in an afterlife for so many years. It just sucks. I would prefer the existence of God or something spiritual.
2. The existence of morality and other metaphysical aspects of human nature. I know many people say morality is dictated by society, but I thing that is only moderately true. When looking at human history it seems that their are certain things that all people value and desire. Where did this come from?
Can anyone sway me to commit one way or the other?
I am agnostic now, but I would like to have a final answer to the god question. I would like you to explain why you believe for or against god.