Disturbed by Story of Abram and Sarai Going to Egypt (Genesis 12:10-20)
Quick background: for years I've struggled with disbelief after being raised Christian. I've recently accepted whole heatedly that God has to exist. I don't want to return to the "Christian" I was, but want a new true faith. My first step in this act is to read the entire bible (following a plan I found online) as if it were the first time reading it. This way of reading the Bible with fresh eyes has helped this early part of my journey quite a bit. Especially with not overlooking popular familiar stories, but diving deep into them. Which bring us to...
On their journey, Abram and Sarai go to Egypt for a little (Genesis 12:10-20 NRSV). Abram tells everyone that Sarai is his sister so that no one kills him because she is "beautiful in appearance." The Pharaoh took her as his wife. Eventually Sarai is given back to Abram, but this just didn't sit well with me. As a husband, I can't imagine any circumstances where I'd be okay with someone 'taking' my wife as theirs (we know what this means). I realize that times were different and their situation was dire given the famine, but I am disturbed by the story and am not sure what I am supposed to glean from it. I picture my own wife being put into that situation and I'm horrified. My wife would protest even to the idea! Sarai said nothing?
I'm just a bit disturbed and confused.