I’ve often heard other believers talk about “God’s provision.” Specifically, trusting God’s provision. But I don’t understand even a little God’s provision, or how to trust in God’s provision, outside of the provision of His Son and His Kingdom. I get that God has provided His kingdom, salvation, and the means to have relationship with Him in and through Jesus, what I don’t get is how or why anybody could or should trust in God’s provision for our day-to-day lives, or what that even means.
I think of the passage in Daniel 3:16-18 where the trio are about to be thrown in the furnace, and their response is basically “We understand that God CAN save us from you, but even if he DOESN’T we still won’t bow to your idols.” Similarly, I understand that God CAN provide for my day-to-day needs, but just because He CAN doesn’t mean He has to or even will, and as Job discovers, God is still good even if he doesn’t provide those needs or if I’m met with the worst tragedy, and the truth is I should remain faithful to Him even if He doesn’t provide.
I also think of Jesus’ words in Matthew 6:25-34, but think of the people around the world who starve every day, or who don’t have clothes. I know even in those worst of situations God is good and will ultimately bring healing and justice to those things, but knowing that any of that can happen to anybody makes me wonder how I can realistically trust God’s provision for the life I live until either I die or until Jesus’s return.
For context, the reason I’m thinking about this and it’s so heavily on my mind is because I am looking for a house right now, I have until April to find something and every house I can reasonably afford has major issues. I know if I told any of my believer friends how I’m afraid I won’t be able to find anything that they’ll just tell me to keep trying and trust God’s provision. But it’s entirely possible that God won’t provide a home, and that if He doesn’t I know He’s still good but it doesn’t make me any less angry, sad, scared, and hopeless.