I can't shake the sense that god is power hungry. I spoke to a reverend today and whilst it was illuminating on a personal level I cannot shake his lack of answer about god's motives and blind rebuttal.
It looks to me that god wants power over all interpretation and most are complict in the church's arbitrary decisions about valid interpretations on life. There are many contradictions implicit and explicit across the churches and anyone in particular holding the highest truth seems unlikely and dishonest. It seems inevitable a data collecting society would use that information for a form of religious final judgement. It looks that conventional advertising techniques and political outrage machines and social media cascades are working for the church's aims now.
There is no place left to hold an original thought, a secret or a valid intepretation that god has not elevated to a powerful position. I get an unerring sense that the blind are leading the blind. It's a mess.
I distrust the motives of the religious establishment. The freedom of eastern nihilism seems more honest than a church with face recognition cameras and secret scandals for the sake of appearing persecuted.
Is god seeking to control all via power rather than voluntary submission?
It looks to the awake outsider that society has lost its way. I don't seek to restrain god, nor could I. Dignity be damned, there must be someone else who sees the nature of society at this time, for what it is.